October 29, 2008

The Price I Paid
Alex Hawk

I’d just turned thirteen when I lost my virginity. It was the ultimate dream goal of just about every boy in the world of that age. Little did I know at the time how much of a price I was going to wind up paying.

I was at a party when I met Amber. She was fifteen, had long, black hair, wore a very short skirt and t-shirt and smiled a lot. I’d been admiring her from afar for the last couple hours when, much to my surprise, she walked up to me.


“Hi!” I answered.

“I’m Amber.”

“I know. I’m Kevin.”

“Hello, Kevin,” she said, shaking my hand politely. “I haven’t seen you at one of Taylor’s parties before.”

I shrugged. “I’ve never been to any before.”

Amber smiled. She had a very sweet smile. “You having fun?”

“Yeah, it’s pretty cool.”

As the DJ started playing a new song, Amber said, “Oh! I love this one! Come dance with me!”


I followed Amber out to the floor where about fifteen other kids were dancing and started doing my best to keep up with her. I wasn’t a very good dancer, but I tried as hard as I could, and at least I didn’t trip or knock her over or anything.

We danced for a couple songs before Amber, sweating a little but still smiling, said, “Come on, Kevin. I need to get out of here for a bit. It’s too hot.”

“Alright,” I said, sweat plastering my shirt to my body.

We stepped outside to the large backyard outside Taylor’s house. His family had some real money and they lived in a huge house on the outskirts of town. As Amber and I stepped out into the yard, she let out a sigh of happiness.

“MUCH nicer. I can’t stand being all hot and sweaty.”

“Yeah, it does kind of suck,” I admitted.

“So how old are you, Kevin?”


“Wow, really? You come off a lot older. Like fifteen or sixteen.”

“Really?” My chest swelled up with pride. “Thanks!”

“When did you turn thirteen?”

“Last month.”

“Wow. Well, you seem really mature for your age.”


“You wanna go fuck?”

That brought me up short and stopped me dead in my tracks. “What?”

“Do you wanna fuck? We can just dash into the woods, no one will see,” she said, nodding over her shoulder to the trees I only just now realized we’d been walking towards. “I’m really horny and I wanna get laid,” she added.

“Uh… uh…”

Amber looked at me and then smiled again. “Oh! You’re still a virgin, aren’t you?”

“Well…” I shrugged awkwardly and looked away. “Yeah.”

“Oh… I’d assumed you weren’t.”

“Well… I am. Sorry.”

Amber giggled and put her hand on my shoulder. “You don’t need to apologize. I don’t mind. Virgins can be fun. My offer is still open, if you’re interested.”

I blinked a couple times. “Do you really mean it? You really want me to… fuck you?” I could barely get the vital word out.

“Yeah. You want to?”

Part of me was really unsure. I mean, it was kind of sudden and a little strange. But the other part of me, the most important part, which was currently rock solid, knew exactly what it wanted to do.

“Here, come on,” she said as she looked around and, seeing no one visible, pulled her shirt off to expose two beautiful breasts. My penis twitched at the sight. Then she took my hand and led me towards the trees.

Once we were back a little ways, Amber turned and kissed me, pressing her whole body against mine as she started slowly pulling my shirt up. Soon it was on the ground, and now I could feel her bare breasts against my young chest.

“Have you done anything with a girl yet, Kevin?” she asked.

I shook my head and eventually found my ability to speak. “Just kissing. Nothing like this.”

“Cool.” She kissed me again a few more times and then put a hand on my pants, right over my rigid teenage penis. My pulse went racing at the contact.

“What… what should I be doing?” I managed to ask.

“Nothing yet. I’ll do all the work.”


Amber reached down with both hands as she kept kissing me and started to unbutton and unzip my jeans. Once they were open, she pulled them and my boxers down, releasing my virgin penis to pop out into the night.

“Oh, very nice,” she cooed as she took it into her hand, stroking it slowly. “Very nice indeed.”

“Thanks,” I gasped. Then my gasp turned into a moan as I felt something warm and wet slide down the length of my erection. I looked down to see Amber’s head, her mouth around my penis. My first blowjob… god, it was great!

After only a short time sucking me, Amber pulled her mouth back and said, “God, I have to get this thing inside me.” She looked up at me. “I want you to fuck me now. Ok?”

I couldn’t say anything. I just nodded as she lay back on the ground and pulled up her skirt, removing her panties and spreading her legs. I couldn’t see her vagina really clearly cause it was dark out here, but I could see enough to really get my hormones flowing even faster than they already were.

“Come on down here,” she said, cocking a finger.

I dropped down my knees between Amber’s legs, my penis pointing straight up at the treetops.

She took it in her hand and pulled me close. I felt the shaft come into contact with something very wet.

“I hope you don’t mind that I’m rushing. I’m sure you probably pictured your first time a little different.”

“Oh… it’s ok…” I managed to say. “I think I can handle it.”

“Good.” She moved my penis around and I felt something hot and moist against the tip. “Alright. Push it in.”

Well, here goes, I thought. I was about to get laid for the first time! I’d never expected it to happen to me ever, much less at my age. But here I was, about to fuck! I took a deep breath and held it as I pushed forward with my hips, feeling my thirteen-year-old virgin penis slip deep into Amber’s tight, wet, fifteen-year-old vagina.

“Oh…” I whispered as my virginity fled forever.

“Yeah…” Amber said, pulling me down on top of her and kissing me. “Oh, yeah… that’s what I wanted to feel…”

I pushed in as far as I could get, until my balls were resting against her body. I was fucking! I was actually inside a girl! Nothing could ever be more wonderful than this, I thought. It was the best thing EVER!

Amber moved her hands onto my butt. “Come on… start moving.”

Nodding, I pulled back with my hips and then pushed forward, nearly passing out with pleasure. I’d never known anything as wonderful as this was! I went forward and back again, and again, sliding my young penis back and forth inside my first ever vagina.

Unfortunately, like most boys having their first time, mine didn’t last long. I was inside Amber for less than a minute before I started to cum, my sperm shooting out of my penis and going deep into her waiting body.

As soon as I was finished, I fell on top of Amber, breathing hard, my mind spinning as I tried to take in everything that had just happened to me.

“Kevin…?” Amber whispered after a moment.

“Yeah…?” I gasped.

She giggled, her vagina clutching at me slightly. “Just making sure you’re still alive.”

“I think I am…”


I swallowed and managed to get myself back more into reality. “Do I have to take it out?”

“Do you want to?”


“Then don’t.”


I stayed on top of Amber, keeping my penis inside the warm tunnel that I never wanted to leave. I didn’t ever end up going completely soft, and soon I was back to being hard. Almost on instinct I started thrusting slowly once more.

“Oooo… I love a boy who can go back for seconds…” Amber whispered.

Grinning a little I propped myself up on my elbows and started fucking her a little faster, enjoying how much better it felt the faster I went. It was really cool, too, looking down and seeing her breasts jiggle as I fucked her. As I fucked her! I was fucking a girl! WOW! How many middle school students could say THAT?

This time I managed to last quite a bit longer, at least four minutes, before I added another blast of sperm to Amber’s vagina. Just after I came, she had her orgasm, though at the time I didn’t know that was what it was.

After I was done this time, I pulled out and we sat and talked for a bit before she had me fuck her again, this time with her on top. When that third time was finished, we got dressed and went back to the party. We’d been gone less than an hour.

I didn’t see Amber too much after that. I ran into her at parties a couple more times over the next three months, but she never seemed to be interested in having sex with me again. I was disappointed, but I figured eventually I’d find another girl to fuck. In the meantime, I’d at least have my memories.

Those memories, though, turned sour quickly when Amber came to find me at school one day with the terrible news.

“I’m pregnant.”

Turned out that I’d been the only boy she’d been fucked by since before her last period. A paternity test later proved that I was the father. She gave birth to our son two months before I turned fourteen.

Having a kid at thirteen really fucked my life up. I stayed in school and did as well as I could with it, and when I turned eighteen I joined the Army. Imagine being a new recruit with a son who’s about to start kindergarten.

To make matters worse, Amber and I stopped getting along. We never really spoke to each other, other than to arrange visitation (she had custody). For our son’s sake alone, I wished we’d got on better, but we didn’t.

I paid a pretty steep price for losing my virginity like I did. Three times of having sex when I was thirteen, nothing for years after that, and a kid to show for it. On the whole, I wish I’d waited.


Copyright 2005 by Alex Hawk, all rights reserved. Non terminus messor.


This is a true story that I picked up from an email someone sent me. He knows who he is. I can empathize with how strange it is to have a kid at a young age. One of my two sons just turned 9 and the other will do so next month. I’m 23, to give you an idea.
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