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Deflowering Aspen

October 16, 2008

Deflowering Aspen
By
Alex Hawk

I zoomed the camera in on Aspen’s face. “Smile,” I said to the boy. He was wearing a baseball cap and nothing else.
He grinned a shy little grin, showing a mouthful of braces.

“There you go.” I panned the camera down his nude body. I’d found Aspen at a skatepark. He was in great shape. I zoomed down his chest, to his stomach and then onto his erect penis. It was about four inches long and had only a sparse dusting of pubic hair. Magnificent.

“You have a really great body, Aspen,” I said, pulling back the camera to show all of him.

“Thanks.”

“So I’m going to ask you a few questions, and then I’ll have Haley come in. I do this with all the boys.”

“Ok.”

“How old are you?”

“Thirteen.”

“When was your birthday?”

“Six days ago.”

“Cool.” I panned back down to his penis. “You ever masturbate?”

“Yeah.”

“Do it a little right now.”

Blushing and looking shy, Aspen started stroking his erection. “Like that?”

“Yeah. So you’re still a virgin?”

“Yeah.”

“You look forward to your first fuck?”

Aspen grinned again. “Yeah!”

“Nervous?”

He shrugged. “A little.”

“What do you think it’s going to be like?”

“I don’t know. I think it’s probably going to feel really good, but…” He shrugged.

“What do you wanna try with Haley?”

“I don’t know. Maybe fingering her a little and maybe a blowjob or something?” Aspen blushed again.

“Fucking, too, of course.”

“Yeah.” He giggled. It was very cute.

“You ever done anything with a girl?”

“Just some kissing.”

“What about with another boy?”

He nodded. “My brother and me jerk each other off sometimes.”

“How old is he?”

“Eleven.”

“You like jerking with him?”

“Kinda. It feels pretty good anyhow.”

“Stand up a moment. Let me see your butt.”

Blushing again, Aspen stood up and turned around, showing off his smooth, round, teenage ass. Moving in closer, I reached out and cupped it in my hand.

“Very nice.”

“Thanks.”

“Turn back around.” Aspen turned. I took his barely teenage penis in my hand and stroked it a little. “You’re a very, very pretty boy. Haley’s going to love you and you’re going to just love fucking her.”

“Cool,” he said with a grin.

“You ever get this thing sucked before?”

“No.” Aspen trembled a little as I ran my hand along his erection.

I put the camera on the tripod. “Lay down on the bed. I’ll give you your first ever blowjob and that way you won’t cum to soon when you fuck Haley.”

“I’m really gonna get to fuck her?”

“Yep. But I gotta get you off first. That way you won’t cum too fast and she’ll enjoy it more.”

“Alright,” he said in a slightly shaky voice.

Once Aspen was laying down, I started stroking his sweet virgin penis again and soon had my mouth down around it. I loved making boys cum. There was something really sweet about giving a twelve or thirteen-year-old boy an orgasm. Frankly, that was a major part of why I was glad to have a daughter. It was really easy to get boys to let you do whatever you wanted to them in exchange for losing their virginities.

As I blew Aspen, I ran my hands up onto his bare, hairless chest, teasing his nipples lightly. I was absolutely in love with this young boy’s body. While I continued to suck his underage penis, I moved one of my hands back onto his butt, cupping it gently as Aspen began to twitch with pleasure as his orgasm approached.

“Oooooh…” he whimpered. “Here I go…” Seconds later my eager mouth was filled with several sharp blasts of teenage sperm as the boy started cumming. He made the cutest noises as he climaxed! I was very happy I had the camera aimed at him.

When Aspen finished cumming, I lifted my mouth off his penis, swallowed all the remaining sperm and said to him, “Very sweet.”

“Thanks,” he said with a little grin.

“Thirsty?” I asked as I handed him a can of Coke.

“Yeah!” Aspen popped open the Coke and started drinking. “Thanks.”

“You’re welcome.” I stood up and adjusted the camera, focusing in on the boy on the bed. I pulled out a smaller digital camera and took a few still photos of Aspen’s naked young body. I had the digital camera, the video camera on the tripod and another video camera that was fixed onto the wall. That one was pointed to catch shots of the face of whatever young boy was losing his virginity. I loved to see their expressions when they first penetrated Haley!

Speaking of which… “You ready to fuck?” I asked Aspen.

Grinning widely he said, “Hell, yeah!”

“Be right back,” I said.

I walked out into the hallway and knocked on my daughter’s door. “Haley? Showtime.”

“Ok,” I heard her say. She opened the door, standing there naked. “How do I look?”

“Wonderful,” I said sincerely. I really envied the boys who lost their virginities to her. I’d thought about the idea of fucking her myself a time or two, but that would have been so wrong I wouldn’t even know where to start. “Here’s what he looks like,” I said, showing her the display screen on the digital camera. I scrolled through a few pictures of Aspen.

“Ooo… he’s cute!”

“Yeah, I know.” I ran one of my hands down onto my daughter’s chest, resting it gently on one of her small breasts. I’d never fucked her, but I’d done some… other stuff.

Haley giggled a little. “That tickles!”

“I know.” I moved the hand down between her legs and worked a finger up into her still hairless preteen vagina. She was already wet. “You ready for the boy?”

“Mmmm… yeah! What’s his name?”

“Aspen.”

Haley giggled again. “That’s cute, Daddy! Did you make him cum already?”

“Yeah.” We’d learned after the first couple boys that it was really the best idea.

“Ok, let’s go!”

I withdrew my finger from my daughter’s vagina. One day maybe I WOULD end up fucking her, but for today she was Aspen’s. Walking into the bedroom where Aspen was laying on the bed, I saw him looking through a copy of Playboy.

“Aspen? Put the magazine down and have a look at a real girl.”
The boy sat up instantly. “Yeah? Ok!”

I moved over to the camera and focused it on the doorway.

“Come on in, Haley!”

My daughter walked into the room. She was beautiful indeed! She had shoulder-length blond hair and blue eyes. Her breasts were small, as I mentioned earlier, just barely developed. Given that she was only barely twelve that wasn’t a surprise. And, as I said, she still has no pubic hair. I like girls without any.

“Hi, Aspen,” Haley said in a sexy (for a twelve-year-old), tone of voice.

Aspen swallowed hard. “Uh… hi… uh… Haley. Hi.”

“What do you think, Aspen?” I asked as Haley walked towards him.

“She’s… amazing…”

“Thank you,” Haley said, sitting down on the bed next to the boy. I moved the camera around to focus on both their naked young bodies.

“So ready when you are.”

“Alright.” Haley took one of Aspen’s hands and put it between her legs. “Rub me like this,” she said, moving his hand around.

“Like this?”

“Yeah…” She took Aspen’s penis in her hand and stroked it slowly, leaning in to give him a little kiss. “You’re really cute, Aspen.”

“Thank you.” He blushed. “You’re cuter.”

I rolled my eyes a little as Haley giggled. “Thanks!” She kissed him again.

“Have… you done this a lot?” Aspen asked.

Haley shrugged. “Yeah. But that just means I know how to do it right.”

“Oh, ok.”

“So… when we fuck… do you wanna be on top or do you want me to be?” Haley asked.

I moved around with the camera so that I would be well positioned to catch the moment of penetration no matter which choice the boy made. That was really my favorite moment whenever I did one of these videos. The moment the boy stopped being a virgin.

“Uh… I don’t know… I’ve never… you know…” Aspen blushed again.

“Well… how about if I get on top the first time and then the second time you can be on top?” she asked, fondling one of his nipples.

“Uh… ok…” Aspen managed to say, his voice cracking slightly.

As I took a moment to adjust the cameras to capture everything, my daughter got on top of Aspen, rubbing her vagina gently against the tip of his penis. She looked at me.

“Now, Daddy?”

“Are you ready, Aspen?” I asked.

Nodding nervously, the boy tried to say “yes” a couple times, and then finally managed to squeak out a little “-es…”

I looked at Haley. “Ok, honey.”

Haley nodded and very slowly, very tenderly, started to lower her tight twelve-year-old vagina down onto Aspen’s thirteen-year-old virgin penis. I zoomed in as their genitals merged, watching as my daughter went lower and lower until finally Aspen’s wisps of pubic hair brushed against her hairless mound.

I took a look at the boy’s face as his virginity left him forever. He had the typical look of total bliss that I was used to seeing on these kids. Even Haley had looked really cute when she lost her virginity last year to a boy who used to live next door.

“What do you think, Aspen?” I asked.

Aspen looked completely overwhelmed. “I… don’t know what… what to say…”

“You like it inside there?”

“Oh, yeah… hell, yeah…”

“Good. Start moving, Haley.”

“Ok!” My daughter started working her hips, riding the young boy’s penis for all she was worth. The envy I’d felt earlier returned. Eventually I probably WOULD give into temptation and fuck my daughter, but for now at least I got see cute boys doing so.

“Oh, god, I’m gonna… I’m… aaaah!” Aspen began lifting his hips up, pushing deep into Haley’s vagina. He groaned loudly, and I imagined his sperm shooting up into Haley’s waiting vagina. I wondered if he’d make her pregnant. One of these boys certainly would some day.

“Mmmm…” Haley said, wiggling around on Aspen’s penis. “So how was THAT?”

Aspen grinned stupidly. “Oh, it was just… wow…”

I zoomed in on the boy’s face. “So how did it compare with what you expected?”

Aspen thought for a second. “I don’t know. It felt really good, though! Still does.” He grinned shyly.

“Cool,” I said, looking at Haley. “How was he?”

“Really sweet,” she said, leaning down to give Aspen a kiss. “I can’t wait to have you on top.”

“Really?”

“Really.”

“Well… ok. When?” Aspen grinned shyly again.

Haley laughed. “Are you ready now?”

“Yeah!”

She smiled at me. “I love virgins, Daddy.”

“That’s because you’re smart, Haley.”

She lifted herself off Aspen, his hard penis sliding out of her vagina and slapping against his stomach. Haley laid down next to him and spread her legs. I zoomed the camera in, focusing on a small string of sperm leaking out of her body.

“Ready when you are.”

Rather awkwardly, Aspen knelt between Haley’s spread legs. I moved the camera around as he poked around a little with his penis. “Right here?”

“Yeah.”

Aspen pushed, and I watched as his underage penis vanished once more into my daughter’s preteen vagina. As soon as he was in her, he started fucking slowly, holding himself up above her a little. I panned the camera from his nearly hairless pubes up onto his stomach and bare chest, and then up onto his face. His mouth was open slightly and his eyes were closed. He was obviously having the time of his life! I moved the camera around to the back, zooming on his bare butt as it flexed and relaxed in time to his thrusts. Oh, he was a magnificent specimen!

Moving slowly, I panned up over Aspen’s shoulder and looked down at my daughter’s face as she got fucked by this lucky boy. She saw me filming and grinned up at me. I pulled back a little to capture the faint jiggle of her breasts as Aspen screwed her.

I sighed a pleasant sight. These two young children looked so beautiful as they copulated! I was so very happy I was taping all this. My only regret was that I wasn’t getting laid at that age.

Aspen lowered himself down so that he was laying entirely on top of Haley, just his butt moving as he fucked her faster and faster. I placed one of my hands on his ass, savoring the sensation of his muscles moving as Haley’s hand joined mine. We smiled at each other.

“Ooooh… oh, god, I’m gonna cum again…” Aspen whispered. An instant later he stopped moving as his orgasm claimed him once more.

When Aspen was done cumming, I pulled back with the camera, framing the kid’s naked, sweaty bodies in the center of the screen. This would look beautiful when I watched it later. It looked beautiful now! No matter what the future brought to Aspen’s life, he would forever be immortalized on my video tapes as a beautiful thirteen-year-old boy.

Aspen and Haley spent all day long fucking. He pumped so much sperm into her vagina I was amazed she didn’t slosh when she walked. He even managed to give Haley a couple orgasms, which most boys never managed to do even once!

Two weeks later, I’d finished editing the tapes together and burned them onto a disc. Soon a DVD labeled “ASPEN – 13″, joined other DVDs with names like “HALEY – 11 / TERRY 14″, “ARTHUR – 12″, “TONY – 13″, “NICK – 11″ and “ANDREW – 14″. Twenty-seven discs, twenty-seven boys. A little more than a year of sexual frolicking. Sometimes Haley and I will sit around and watch a movie while masturbating each other. Not your standard father/daughter activity, but still.

I sometimes feel a little guilty about all this. A little weird. I mean, I know it’s not at all right for me to be making kiddie porn, using my daughter to get young boys and molesting those boys myself. But I guess it’s like a drug, and ultimately I’m just a hopeless addict.

END

Copyright 2004 by Alex Hawk. All characters and events depicted are fictional. Any similarity to real people or events is entirely unlikely.

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Holding Onto Joy

October 21, 2008

Holding Onto Joy
By
Alex Hawk

I was awkward when I was thirteen.

I know that seems obvious. EVERYONE is awkward at thirteen. But, well, I was kind of a geek. I didn’t have any real friends. I was scrawny. I was pale. I wore glasses. Really the only way in which I wasn’t awkward was that I didn’t wear braces. I actually had really nice teeth.

My home life didn’t make things much better. My parents weren’t abusive or anything like that, but they fought with each other a lot and were pretty obviously moving towards a divorce. I just wished they’d get there soon or make up. Either way, the fighting was really bringing me down.

I’d really hit bottom with my life a couple months ago when I tried to kill myself. I didn’t try very hard, I guessed. I cut my wrists open, but I did it wrong. I bled a lot and passed out, but my dad found me and got me to the hospital. After that, my parents stopped fighting.

For about three days.

Then they were back at it.

In short, my life really sucked. The only refuge I had was in my books. I loved to read, I loved to learn, I even loved doing homework. Anything that kept my away from my parents was a good thing.

The good thing, the only good thing, about my constant reading/studying/nerdiness, was the fact that it made me prized by people who wanted someone to help them with their homework. It meant I got a little less razzing from the popular people than I otherwise might have had.

It was in this tutoring capacity that I found myself spending a great deal of time at the house of Lisa Martins. She was one of the prettiest, most popular girls in the school, and like most every boy, I had a massive crush on her.

She was also really, really bad at math.

Thankfully, I wasn’t.

Lisa was a really cool girl. It’s not just that she was pretty, though she really, really was, but she also was very nice and very sweet. She wasn’t mean to anyone. She always smiled. She always said hello. I really liked her. I figured the only reason she was nice to me was because she knew I would help her study. But I didn’t mind.

We’d had some major tests coming up and I’d spent almost every day of the last two weeks hanging out with her after school and doing my best to teach her what I could. She wasn’t stupid or anything, but she really wasn’t good at math. Still, I’d tried as hard as I could, so we’d see how it turned out.

We got our test results the week after the test. I’d done fairly well, though not as well as I’d wanted. I was in the upper 97%, but I wanted to be at the top. Oh, well. I figured that I could probably deal with it.

After school that day, as I was getting ready to head home, Lisa came up to me.

“Hey, Julian.”

“Oh, hey, Lisa. How are you?”

“Ok. Can you come over to my place for a bit?”

“Sure. You need some more help with math or stuff?”

“Well, I wanted to go over my test results.”

“Oh.” I shrugged. “Sure, I’d be happy to come over,” I replied, mentally kicking my heels in joy.

“Ok, let’s go!”

“Ok.”

Our arrival at Lisa’s house was delayed by several minutes as she stopped to talk with various friends of hers. She gossiped with the girls and flirted with the boys, and just as I was about to make an excuse, she finally finished what she was up to and we made our way to her home.

We made small talk as we walked to Lisa’s house. Well, she talked (endlessly, and about all sorts of gossip), and I listened with half an ear. I really didn’t care about any of that stuff, but I did like spending time with her, so I forced myself to at least try to pay attention.

Once we got to Lisa’s house, we each got Cokes from the kitchen and then went out to the living room, sitting on the couch where we’d done so much of our studying. Lisa seemed to be sitting a little closer than normal to me.

“So… about my test scores,” she began.

“Yeah?”

Lisa smiled that sweet smile I loved so much. “I passed!” she squealed.

“Wonderful!” I said, smiling myself.

“And it’s all thanks to you!” She put her arms around me and hugged me tight, then gave me a kiss on the cheek.

“Oh!” I said, not expecting that. I blushed. “Well, it wasn’t me that passed the test, it was you. You’re pretty smart.”

“I’m not that smart,” she replied, sitting back a little.

“You’re smarter than everyone thinks. You’re smarter than you think you are.”

Now it was her turn to blush. “No, I’m not.”

“Yes, you are,” I persisted. “I helped you learn, but you passed the test on your own.”

“Well, thanks.” She took a sip of her Coke. “Most guys think I’m kind of stupid.”

“I don’t know why,” I said, honestly.

She shrugged. “Well… I mean, I do cheerleading, and… well, I mean… I kind of… you know… sleep around…”

“Oh,” I said, my face getting hot. “I didn’t know that.”

“Yeah. Well, I mean, I’m not like some horrible slut or anything. But I’ve had sex with eight boys since last year, and, well, you know. People talk.”

“Oh.” I took a sip of my Coke, and then gave a shy laugh. “Well, you’re doing better than me, then. I haven’t had sex with any boys.”

Lisa stared at me for a moment and then laughed. “Yeah, well, how many girls?”

Shifting awkwardly, I quietly said, “None.”

“Oh, really? I’m surprised.”

My eyebrows went up. “You are?”

“Well, yes. I mean, you’re smart and you’re cute. I assumed you’d already had sex.”

“I want to,” I said, blushing again. “But… yeah. I haven’t.”

“Oh.”

“Yeah.”

We sat there in silence for a little bit. I felt kind of weird discussing my sex life, or lack of it, with a girl I had a crush on. But she seemed to be pretty comfortable with it, so I figured it wasn’t any big deal. And since I knew now that she wasn’t a virgin, at least I’d have something nice to think about when I jacked off tonight.

“Stand up for a second,” Lisa said.

“Huh?”

“Stand up in front of me.”

“Ok.” I got to my feet, standing in front of her.

Lisa set down her Coke and put her hands on my hips, pulling me in closer. Then to my utter amazement she started to unbutton and unzip my jeans, opening them up to reveal my bulging underwear.

“Uh…” I began.

“Shhh… just relax, ok? We’re gonna have fun.” She lowered my jeans down and then matter-of-factly took my boxers down to join them.

Now that my virgin penis was exposed, she took it in her hand and began stroking it slowly, sending more pleasure through me than I’d ever felt before. Smiling up at me as she did so, she said, “You’ve got a nice one.”

“Thanks…” I whispered. I’d always thought my penis was nothing special. It was a little under four inches long and had hardly any hair yet. I was happy Lisa liked it, though!

Then Lisa opened her mouth and wrapped it around my young penis, and if I thought her stroking me had felt good, it was nothing compared to this! I’d heard about blowjobs, but I never knew they’d be as amazing as this was! The way her tongue felt on me… oh, wow…

“Oh, god…” I whispered as I enjoyed my first blowjob.

“You like?” Lisa asked, lifting her face off me for a moment.

“Yes…”

“Good.” She lowered her head back down.

As Lisa’s lips and tongue worked their magic on my penis, I had to grit my teeth in a desperate effort not to cum too quickly. I certainly didn’t want to shoot while her mouth was on me. I figured a mouthful of sperm would not make her happy.

Finally, though, I couldn’t hold back. I nearly shouted, “Oh… oh, I’m gonna cum!”

Rather than stopping, as I expected, Lisa began moving faster, and before I could say or do anything else, my penis began to twitch, shooting my sperm into her mouth as my I had my first ever orgasm given to me by someone else.

Not surprisingly it was the best one I had ever had, and I nearly collapsed afterwards. It was all I could do to stagger myself back down onto the couch as Lisa grabbed her Coke, took a sip, rinsed it through her mouth and then swallowed.

“That was your first blowjob, right?” she said after a few moments.

“Yeah…”

“What did you think?”

I smiled weakly. “It was… wow…”

“I’m glad you liked it. No, don’t,” she said, as I reached down to pull up my boxers. “We’re not done yet.”

“We aren’t?” I asked in honest confusion.

“Of course not.” She stood up and pulled her t-shirt over her head. “You’re still a virgin. We won’t be done until you’re not.”

“Oh?” I thought for a second as that sunk in. “Oh!”

“Yeah.”

“You mean we’re going to…” I couldn’t bear to finish the sentence in case I was wrong.

“Yes, we are.” She pulled off her bra, jeans and panties, leaving her beautifully, gloriously naked. She was every bit as beautiful as I had dreamed. Small, pert breasts, a little patch of hair between her legs. Smooth skin Amazing!

Then Lisa sat down on my lap. I felt the shaft of my still-hard penis brushing against something warm and a little wet. Her vagina, I realized, as she started to kiss me and began unbuttoning my shirt.

“What do I need to be doing?” I asked between kisses.

“Whatever you want,” she replied as she leaned down and kissed, then licked, one of my nipples before starting to kiss my mouth again.

I wasn’t sure what to do. I had a vague idea that girls liked to have their vaginas rubbed, so I reached down between our bodies, brushing up against my throbbing penis, and began rubbing everything I could.

At one point one of my fingers found a warm, wet hole and started to slide inside her. That was the place, I realized, feeling a little dizzy. This is where my penis was supposed to go. This wonderful velvet passage. I couldn’t wait!

“Mmmm… that feels nice,” Lisa whispered into my ear as I fingered her.

“Yeah?”

“Yeah….”

“Cool,” I said with a happy smile, very glad to be making her feel almost as good as I was, cause there was no way she could feel better than me! Between the next series of kisses, I said, “Is there anything else I can do that you will like?”

Lisa sat up a little and looked down at me. “You mean you’re more concerned with what I will like than what you will like?”

“Well… yeah?” I was suddenly uncertain. “That’s ok, isn’t it?”

She smiled. “It’s perfect.”

“Ok.”

“And no, there’s nothing you can do. At least not this time.”

“This time?” I echoed.

Lisa laughed a little. “Of course! You don’t think we’re only going to do this once, do you?”

The smile on my face was so big I thought it might cause my head to fall off. “Cool…” was all I could think so say.

We started kissing again, my finger working back and forth inside Lisa’s amazing vagina. I wondered how long it was going to be before I would get to put my penis inside there. I wasn’t in any great hurry, but I was wondering.

I didn’t have to wonder too much longer, because Lisa suddenly got to her feet and pulled me up. “Lay down on the coffee table.”

“Why?” I asked, doing so.

“Because it will be easier for us to fuck on there than on the couch,” she replied, straddling my waist.

“Oh,” I said weakly, my mouth suddenly dry.

“Don’t be nervous,” Lisa said, now holding my penis straight up.

“I’m not,” I lied. “But… don’t I need a condom or something?” I asked, remembering what I’d learned in health class.

“Normally, yes,” Lisa said. “But in this case… you’re a virgin, so I can’t catch anything from you.”

“What about… a baby?”

Lisa shrugged. “I don’t mind the risk. Are you ready?”

Unable to speak, I just nodded.

“Ok.” Lisa lifted her body up. I felt the tip of my erection brush against something just an instant before it was swallowed up into her liquid warmth. Looking down I could see that almost every bit of my thirteen-year-old virgin penis had gone up into her incredible thirteen-year-old vagina. I was officially getting laid!

“Oh…” I whispered as the pleasure began to hit me.

“You like this?” Lisa asked, moving her body up and down a little.

“Yeah…” I leaned up and kissed her. “Thank you… thank you so much…”

Lisa didn’t say anything else, she just kissed me back and kept riding me. I tried my best to hold back as long as I could, being very happy her blowjob had gotten me off earlier. I wanted to make it last as long as I could; not just for myself but try and give her as much pleasure as I could. But it was a losing effort, and after only a few moments fucking, I let out a series of gasps, and felt my penis begin to spasm within her vagina, sending blasts of sperm deep into her body.

As I finished cumming, Lisa moaned on top of me and I felt her vagina contracting around my penis. This was her orgasm, I knew. I’d read quite a lot about these sorts of things. Just in case, you know.

After we were done, Lisa laid herself on top of me, and kissed me some more, her breasts against my bare chest. Then she said, “I gotta go clean up. I’ll be back in a few, ok? Then we can go up to my bedroom and do some more, if you like.”

I wasn’t able to speak, I just smiled and nodded, then enjoyed the sight of Lisa’s naked body as she walked away from me.

Strangely, stupidly, I then began to laugh. It started as a light giggle of delight, but soon I was laughing loudly. I supposed it might’ve looked odd had anyone seen me. I was laying on my back on the coffee table, my pants and boxers around my ankles, my legs dangling off the edge. My shirt was unbuttoned and showing off my hairless chest, and my still-erect penis was moving with each laugh.

I knew now that I’d never try to kill myself again. I knew that no matter what happened to me in life, things would be ok. My parents could divorce, I could have to move away from here, I could get a horrible disease. None of that would matter. If I ever felt depressed again, all I’d have to do is remember THIS time and THIS place, and I’d be able to hold onto joy.

I was the happiest boy on the planet.

THE END

Copyright 2007 by Alex Hawk, all rights reserved.

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Photographs

October 28, 2008

Photographs
By
Alex Hawk

Very tentatively, I knocked on the door of the bedroom of my fifteen-year-old sister, Brittney.

“What is it, Justin?” she called out. Yeah, she was named Brittney and I’m named Justin. Don’t even get me started on that.

“Let me come in for a second. I need to talk with you.”

“Ok, just a moment.” I heard her moving around and then she opened the door. “‘Sup, little bro?”

“Can I come in? I wanna talk in private.”

She gave me a Look. “Why? We’re the only ones home.”

I shrugged. “Just humor me, ok?”

“Alright,” she said with a dramatic sigh. Once I was inside her room with the door shut, Brittney said, “So what’s up, Justin?”

“Well.. it’s like this. I’ve met this guy on the Internet…”

Brittney rolled her eyes. “You know, nothing good begins with that sentence.”

“Yeah, well. This is different. I told him about me being gay and stuff.” I’d come out to only a few people so far, including Brittney. It was a major thing for me when I told anyone. Lots of people thought that since I was only thirteen I was too young to know what I wanted, but they had no clue.

“Ok. And?”

“Well… long story short, I sent him a couple pics of me, he said he thought I was very cute and that he’d pay me two-hundred dollars for some more pics.”

“More pics,” said Brittney flatly. “What sort?”

“Well…” I shuffled around a little and mumbled, “Me naked and jerking off?”

“Oh, lord,” my sister said, sitting on the edge of her bed and putting a hand over her face. “You told him no, right? PLEASE tell me you told him no?”

“He said he’d send me one-hundred dollars up front to prove he was for real. I used a post office box my friend Chad’s older brother got for him. It’s clear across town, so it’s not like the guy even got our address or anything.”

Brittney glared at me. “Justin. Please, please tell me you told this guy to go fuck himself.”

Blushing a little I reached into my pocket and pulled out a crisp one-hundred dollar bill.

“Oh, for the love of Corn Flakes! Justin! What the hell were you thinking?!”

“I was thinking that with two-hundred bucks I could get myself some new clothes, some books and a nice present for my older sister when her birthday rolls around next month.”

She pointed a finger at me. “Oh, no you don’t. Don’t even try to make it sound like you did any of this for me.” She sighed. “Have you sent him the pictures yet?”

“I haven’t made them yet.”

“Good. Don’t.”

“But I have to! I want the rest of the money and besides, I told him I would.”

Rolling her eyes, Brittney said, “Listen carefully to me, little brother. You’re thirteen. Making pictures of yourself naked and masturbating would be kiddie porn. That’s illegal.”

“I know. But I want the money.”

Letting out a long sigh, my sister said, “Look, dumb-ass, why are you dragging me into this anyhow? Why am I even hearing about it?”

“Well… I need you to take the pictures?”

“WHAT?!”

I backed up quickly, actually a tiny bit scared from the look on her face. “Well, it’s not like I can take them myself! I’d have to stand in front of a mirror or something and how would THAT look? Plus you have the digital camera! I don’t! You HAVE to help! Please?”

Taking a deep breath, my sister said, “Justin, I love you dearly, so I’m going to forget we even had this conversation and-”

“I’ll give you fifty bucks!” I blurted out.

“- I’ll give deep, deep consideration to the idea.” She closed her eyes and looked thoughtful for about a half a second. “Deal.”

I blinked. “What? Just like that?”

“Yeah. I’ll do it for seventy-five dollars, just like you said.”

“But I said…” I looked at her face. “Yeah, I said seventy-five.”

“Good boy.” She patted me on the head. “I really wanted to get some new clothes this weekend, so that works nicely. BUT! There’s one other catch.”

“What’s that?”

“Well… there’s this guy I met on the Internet…”

I couldn’t stop laughing for about a minute. When I finally calmed down I giggled just a little and said, “You know, nothing good has ever come of that sentence.”

“Oh, shut up.”

“How much is he offering to pay?”

“He’s not. He’s this really cute sixteen-year-old boy who lives in North Dakota, but his family will be here for the winter. Maybe he’ll be a better fuck than my last boyfriend.” We lived out in the California desert in a resort town. Lots of people visited.

“Ah. And he wants naked pics of you?”

Brittney shrugged. “I’ve seen him naked, so he wants to see me. I’ve done webcasts with him, but he wants to have some still pics, too.”

“Oh, ok.”

“So do we have a deal?”

I shrugged. I wasn’t too keen on the idea of seeing my sister naked, but I figured she probably felt the same way about me. “Deal.” I shook hands with her. “When do you wanna do this?”

She looked at the clock. “How about an hour from now? We can both get ready and that gives us plenty of time before Mom and Dad get home from work.”

“An hour it is! See ya!” I raced back to my room to prepare. I showered, I put on my best clothes, I got everything ready to go.

There was a knock on my door. I opened it to reveal Brittney. “Hey, sis.”

“Yo.” She brought in her digital camera. “Let me get this thing hooked up to your computer. That way it’ll be easier to manage everything.” Once everything was set up and ready to go, Brittney said, “Alright. I’ll take a few pics of you fully clothed and then you can start stripping and I’ll take pics of that.”

“Ok.”

At my sister’s suggestion, I took the top sheet off my bed and hung it up on the wall so that there would be something for me to be photographed against. Then, with her calling the shots, quite literally, I started posing in front of it.

“Ok,” Brittney said after taking several pictures. “Take off your shirt.”

I pulled my shirt off very slowly, pausing for photos every couples seconds, and did a few more poses.

My heart then skipped a couple beats as my sister said, “Ok. Go ahead and pull off your jeans now.”

This was a moment of truth for me. Swallowing a little I slowly started to work my way out of my jeans, as before pausing for pics constantly, until I was standing there in nothing but my tighty-whities. My teenage penis throbbed under the fabric.

Brittney moved in for a few closeups, having my hold my penis through the underwear to show it off a little. Then she said, “Ok, little bro. Big moment now. Take off your underwear, but do it really, really slowly so that I can get some really good footage, ok?”

Nodding at her, I took a deep breath. I was nervous as hell here. But I wanted to get some more money, and if posing like this while my sister took photos of me was what it took well, then, hey! Call me Mister Naked Boy.

To my surprise, taking off my underwear under my sister’s direction wasn’t actually as difficult as I thought it would be. I pulled them down a little in back first, to highlight my butt, and then turned around. I lowered the front just a little, enough to show off my pubes. Finally, bracing myself a little, I took the big step and, as I turned away from the camera again, I slowly pulled down my underwear until I was completely nude. Now naked, I turned around and faced my sister, my hands covering my penis.

“Uhm. Justin? You do kind of need to move your hands so that I can take a picture of that, too,” Brittney said with a little smile.

“Right,” I said, exhaling hard. I pulled my hands away to expose my young erection.

“Very nice,” my sister said after a moment. Soon she was back to snapping pic after pic of my nude body.

For the next several minutes, Brittney took a whole bunch of pictures of me naked. I think there were more nude pics than there were any others all total, including some of me holding my penis in various ways and even a little video clip of me slowly masturbating. I wondered what she was thinking as she made all these photos. Oh, well. Soon I’d be taking pictures of her and maybe I’d get something of an idea then.

“Ok, Justin,” Brittney said as she turned towards her laptop. “Come over here and have a look.”

I walked over, still naked, and looked at the computer screen as photo after photo of me in various stages of undress scrolled along.

“Those look really good,” I said.

“Yeah. You’re a pretty cute model, too.”

“I am?” I blushed.

“Yeah. Anyhow, are you ready to take pics of me?” she asked, handing me the camera.

I shrugged. “Sure, I guess so. Let me get dressed.”

“Why bother?” Brittney asked. “If we need to do any extra shots of you, you’ll just have to get naked again.”

I considered this. “Well… ok. Then go stand over there,” I said, gesturing towards the sheet.

Brittney walked over to the sheet and I put her through the same series of motions that she’d put me through. Eventually I got her progressively down to her bra and panties and then finally got her out of those.

And you know what? It did nothing at all for me. Her breasts looked ok, I guess, and between her legs all I could really see was a patch of hair. It just did nothing for me. If this wasn’t confirmation of me being gay, I don’t know what would be.

“I want to lay down and have you get some close-ups, ok?” Brittney said.

I shrugged. “Sure, if you want.”

My sister laid down and spread her legs. I got down on the floor with her and started taking a lot of different pics of her breasts and face. Eventually I crouched between her legs and took several pictures of her exposed vagina. It looked really strange to me. My penis was as hard as it had ever been, but I chalked that up to the eroticness of the situation. I couldn’t for the life of me see the attraction of something like what laid between Brittney’s legs.

“Let me see the camera for a second,” my sister said. Still crouched between her legs I passed it to her. She said, “Smile!” and took a picture. Looking at the back of the screen she said, “Huh. That looks kinda cool.”

“Let me see it?”

She handed me the camera and I looked at the picture she’d taken. You could see my body from the chest down, including my hard penis. All you could see of my sister was her pubic hair, her spread thighs and stomach.

“Yeah, I guess that looks kinda cool,” I said.

“Almost looks like you’re gonna fuck me,” she giggled.

I laughed. “Yeah, kind of, I guess.”

“Gimme back the camera.” I handed it to her. “Now. Take your dick and point it at my pussy.”

“What?”

“You heard me.”

“Why?”

“I wanna take a picture of you doing that.”

“Why?”

Brittney rolled her eyes. “Just do it, ok?”

Somewhat reluctantly, I took my penis in my hand and pointed it down towards my sister’s vagina as she took several pics of me in this pose.

After she was done with photographing us like this, I said, “So why do you want it to look like I was going to fuck you?”

“Well, there’s lots of, like, older guys out there who I think would pay a lot more money than what you’re already getting if they saw what looked like pics of a brother and sister getting it on together.”

“They will?” I asked, surprised.

“Yeah. Lots of times when I’m chatting online with people and I tell them I have a little brother they ask if I’m fucking you.”

I thought about this for a few seconds and then nodded. “Yeah, you know, I’ve even had a couple guys ask me things like that, too.”

Brittney nodded. “Yeah, so, see, if there’s actually pics that make it look like we’ve been having sex, then people will be willing to pay for it. You see?”

“Yeah… yeah, that does make sense. We could make a lot of money this way!”

“Damn right, Justin!” She grinned.

“So you wanna take a few more pictures?” I asked, my penis still hard and my hand still pointing it down at my sister’s vagina.

“Yeah, sure. But here. You hold the camera.”

“Ok.” I took it from her. “Now what?”

“Well… do you care if I touch your dick?”

“Uh… I guess not.”

I let go of my penis and my sister took it in her hand, lining it up with her vagina. “Ok, now take some pics of this and make sure you get a few showing like my body and face as much as you can, ok?”

“Alright.”

As I snapped the pictures I thought about how weird it was that my sister was holding onto my penis. I’d had sex with a couple of other guys before, so I was used to having other people touching me. But in this case, it was not only a girl it was also my sister. Very strange. But it felt just as good as it did when another guy touched it.

“Ok, give me the camera.” I handed it down to my sister and she looked over some of the photos. “Cool. You’re pretty good at taking pictures.”

“Thanks.”

“Alright. Let’s try some more.” She passed it back to me. “Point it down at me again, ok?”

“Ok.” I held my penis with one hand and the camera in the other. Brittney reached down and spread open her vagina. Now I could actually see the hole! It looked… interesting. Not quite like anything I’d seen before.

“Ok. Now move forward until the head of your dick touches against my hole.”

I didn’t even bother to argue. I did as I was told and felt the tip of my erection brushing up against my sister’s vagina. The sensation was pretty interesting. Like everything else, it didn’t really do anything for me, though I noted distantly that my penis was harder than ever.

Then something pretty cool happened. My sister had been holding her vagina open wide. Now she pulled her fingers away and I felt her labia carressing the tip of my penis. It felt really cool for reasons I didn’t quite get. Very warm and inviting. I was starting to understand what straight boys thought.

“Ok, let me see the camera.”

I passed it back down to my sister who looked it over.

“Very cool,” she said with a smile up to me. “This’ll make us SO MUCH money.”

“Really?”

“Really!” Brittney looked thoughtful. “I got another idea. You got any lube or anything?”

Blushing head to toe I said, “Why?”

“Well, because. Do you?”

“Yeah,” I admitted. I used it to masturbate with and a couple times used it when I got fucked by a friend of mine.

“Get it.”

“Why?”

“Just do it.”

Sighing a little I got up and dug around in my nightstand drawer until I came out with the lube. I then knelt between my sister’s legs once more and said, “Now what?”

“Rub it all over your dick.” Apparently seeing the skeptical look on my face she said, “It’ll make your penis look really wet, like you actually had it inside me.”

“Oh. Why would it be wet if I had it in you?”

“Because pussies are wet inside, stupid.” Brittney rolled her eyes. “What are you, gay or something?”

I stuck my tongue out at her. “Look, I’m thirteen and I’m not into girls. How the hell am I supposed to know these things?”

“How wet is it in there?” I asked, eyeing her vagina.

“Pretty slick. Here, give me your hand.”

Warrily I held out my hand. My sister extended my index finger and pressed it against her vagina. Next thing I knew it was sliding into this place of incredible warmth and wetness.

“Wow! That’s really cool!” I worked my finger back and forth.

“Yeah…”

Pulling it out, I said, “Ok, I can see why you want me to lube up my penis now.”

“Ok, lube up, then!”

I squirted some of the lube onto my penis and started rubbing it all over until my erection was nice and shinny. “Is that good enough?”

“Yeah. Now, put it back where it was before.”

“Ok.”

I scooted forward and lined up. I carefully moved around and then pushed forward just slightly. Apparently, though, the lube had made me a little more slippery than I expected, because suddenly I saw and felt the entire tip of my penis vanish into my sister’s vagina.

I let out an involuntary gasp as I felt this amazing sensation around the head of my erection. It took every bit of strength and willpower that I had to keep myself from pushing all of it into her.

“Sorry!” I managed to say. “I was more slippery than I thought…”

“It’s ok,” my sister said. I started to pull back a little and she said, “No, wait. Long as you’re there, we might as well take some pictures.”

“Oh? Well, ok.” I actually didn’t want to pull back. It felt too nice.

Brittney took a few more pictures, mostly focusing on the place where the head of my penis disappeared into her vagina. I did my best to hold completely still, not wanting to pull back and knowing that I shouldn’t push forward.

“There we go,” she said at last. “I think that’s about as many pics as we can manage.”

“Yeah,” I said with a little chuckle in my voice. “I mean, all we could really do now is have me, you know, put it all the way in.”

I found myself holding my breath wondering what my sister would say to this, while all the while wondering what the fuck was wrong with me! I mean, firstly I’m gay, and secondly, this was my own sister! Going any further than we already had would be so many kinds of wrong I couldn’t even count them all!

But then my heart sang with joy as Brittney shrugged a little and said, “Well, we’ve already gone this far. If we go a little farther, we’ll be able to probably make even more money from all this. If you want to put it all the way in, I don’t really mind.”

“You… you don’t?” I squeaked out.

“Not really. Just let me get some pictures of everything. In fact, I’ll probably set this to record a few seconds of video.”

“Oh… well, if you really don’t mind…?”

“Justin,” Brittney said with a little smile. She aimed the camera. “Just go for it, ok?”

“Ok.”

I steadied myself over Brittney’s naked body and slowly started to push down and forward, my thirteen-year-old virgin penis sliding easily and smoothly into my fifteen-year-old sister’s tight, wet and just magnificent vagina! I let out a little gasp as the impact of all this finally hit my brain. It was absolutely mind blowing!
“Justin?” My sister’s voice came softly to my ears. I looked up into the camera. “Start fucking me, ok?”

I nodded and began slowly fucking my older sister. The sensations that were shooting through my penis were better than anything I’d ever felt before! It felt better than getting blown from a guy, that was sure. There was still something missing for me, though.

Whatever was missing, it wasn’t going to be enough to keep me from cumming, however. As I fucked faster and faster, it was pretty obvious that my orgasm was about to hit. Normally I wouldn’t worry about cumming when I was with someone, but I’d only had sex with guys, and they didn’t get pregnant.

“Oh… oh… ah… Brit…?”

“Yeah…?”

“I’m gonna… gonna cum pretty soon… do I have to… you know… pull out…?”

She shook her head and kept snapping pics. “Don’t worry about it. It’s the wrong time of month.”

“Aaah… good… I… aaaah… ooooh!” Fireworks exploded in my mind as my penis began kicking around in my sister’s vagina, my sperm blasting out of me and into her. I couldn’t even think about how wonderful it was! All I could do was lose myself in pleasure.

When I was done cumming, I collapsed on top of Brittney, breathing hard and trying to get my brain back. She set the camera aside and hugged me tight.

“So what did you think?”

It was several seconds before I could respond, but finally I managed to say, “That was really… whoa… that was cool…” I grinned a little.

Brittney chuckled a little and gave me a kiss on the cheek. “I’m glad you liked it!”

We disengaged ourselves and cleaned up. The rest of the day we spent going over all the pictures and the film clips and sorting out the wheat from the chaff. Once we had what we wanted, I sent some to the guy I knew and Brittney sent some to the boy she knew.

Over the course of the next few months we gradually put out more of the pictures, and soon we were pulling in nearly $500 a month from selling them. One guy, who it turned out lived in the same area as us, even paid my sister and I $1000 each to fuck in front of him while he filmed us. It was the only time I fucked Brittney after the first time, and it wound up being the last.

About seven months after we’d started our little business, the FBI paid a visit to our house and had a chat with our parents. They were NOT HAPPY, to be certain. Grounded? You bet. Grounded to start with! There was talk of military school for me (talk which died when I outed myself to our parents), and threats of a convent for Brittney (which since we were Jewish was really unlikely). Needless to say, we lost our computers and the camera.

Things died down after a few months. Our parents even gave us back our computers when they got tired of putting up with us bugging them to let us use their computer for things like homework and such.

Even after we had the computers back, Brittney and I never got together again. It was probably for the best. I managed to get a steady boyfriend, as did she, and we both went on with our lives. On the whole, things could have been a lot worse.

END

Copyright 2004 by Alex Hawk, all rights reserved.

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Team Spirit

November 2, 2008

Team Spirit
By
Alex Hawk

The ball snapped from the quarterback’s hand and flew through the air, flying straight and true, directly towards where I was heading, completely free and clear of all opposition. I caught it and ran like mad towards the end zone, some thirty yards away, on my way to my second touchdown of the game.

This was the moment I lived for. I could hear the crowd around me cheering as I ran (well, at least the crowd that supported our team), and felt the blood coursing through my body. It was exhilarating! I never felt more alive than I did when I was on the football field.

Now I was ten yards away… then five… then three…

“TOUCHDOWN!”

The crowd, which had been loud, screamed at the top of their lungs. We were now up 29-6 in the last seconds of the fourth quarter. We’d win our opening game of the season and, with luck, go on to win many, many more.

Now the game had ended. We were all in the locker room where the coach proceeded to congratulate all of us. He then went over some of the errors we’d made, most of which were minor, but minor problems can become major soon. As the coach often said, “Sweat the small stuff before it becomes big stuff.”

My teammates and I all then hit the shower. I stripped down, looking at my naked body, counting the areas were the bruises would start appearing tomorrow. Oh, well. This was the price one paid for glory in Texas high school football.

“Good game, Ramon,” one of my friends, Darcy, said, smacking me on my bare ass as he went past.

“Thanks, man.”

We all got under the water to the usual accompaniment of grab-ass, fag jokes and small dick comments, as well as everyone talking about which cheerleaders they were banging, had banged or had wanted to bang.

I kept myself out these discussions. This was partly because I thought they were stupid, partly because they didn’t interest me and partly because, even though I was already sixteen, I was still a virgin. I’d had any numbers of offers from girls, but I’d always said I was waiting to get married. Catholic upbringing and all that.

I hoped they were more convinced than I was.

I found myself standing next to another boy. He was naked, like everyone else, but had a much smaller, slighter build. He didn’t look like anyone I knew from the team, and I wondered who he was. After a bit, I figured out that he must be Jamie Munoz, the boy who was playing Arnie the Armadillo, the mascot of Samuel James McRory High School. Part of my mind noticed that he had a really nice body for a lowly fourteen-year-old freshman.

Jamie saw me looking at him and smiled shyly. “Hey.”

“Hey,” I said with a nod. “You’re the mascot, right?”

“Yeah. You’re Ramon Santiago, right?”

“Yep.”

“Good game today.”

“Thanks.”

My eyes drifted down his body, taking notice of his circumcised penis. I was cut, too, like most of the other boys in the class. It was one way to tell if a Hispanic boy was born in the USA or in Mexico, Columbia, Panama, Nicaragua, El Salvador, Peru, Argentina or any of the number of other shithole countries our ancestors came from.

Jamie must’ve seen me looking cause he looked a little embarrassed and said, “So… you were born here, too?”

I laughed a little. “Yeah. My great-great grandparents came here back around 1900. You?”

“My mom came from Tampico but my dad was born in Houston. His family came here just before the Mexican-American War.”

“Cool.”

“Yeah.”

I laughed again. “Kinda weird when you can tell where someones from by how their dick looks.”

Jamie laughed, too, and I saw his penis twitching. Looked like he was getting hard. He turned around and made a show of rinsing himself off as he said, “Yeah, it’s weird.”

For some reason my own penis was getting hard, too, so I turned and washed myself off, not wanting to put up with any fag jokes sent my way. I knew I probably wouldn’t be getting in the way of any since I’d scored two of our touchdowns, but still.

Once I was done with the shower I got out and got dressed, watching as Jamie walked over to his own locker to do the same. He seemed like a nice enough kid. I’d never really talked with anyone who was with the team but not on the team.

When everyone was ready we went out to the team bus to ride back from Rostov, where we’d been playing the Rostov High School Rangers, back to our small, but nice, hometown of McRory, Texas. They were our arch-rivals and it was always nice to be able to hand them their ass in a sack.

“Hey, Jamie,” I called out to the other boy as he got on the bus. “Come sit with me.”

“Oh, hey, cool, thanks, Ramon.”

As Jamie sat down next to me, the coach got on, did a quick head count and told the driver to get us on the road. It was a two-hour trip back home. We could, of course, have ridden home with our friends and families since they’d come out to watch us play, but the coach preferred us to ride to and from the games together.

“So is this your first year at SJM?” I asked.

“Yeah. I’d played the mascot in junior high, and it seemed like a natural progression.”

“Cool. You’re good at it.”

Jamie sighed. “I wish I was good at football. That’d be much better.”

“Well, yes, football is better,” I said with a solemn nod.

“Not THAT much better,” Jamie replied.

“You ever played football?”

“You ever been a mascot?”

“Ok, point made.”

“I thought so.”

The two of us spent a bit more time talking, but eventually we both drifted off to sleep. When I woke up I could see the lights of McRory in the distance. There were only about 3,000 people in our town, but it was home.

I looked at Jamie, who was still sleeping. His head was resting on my shoulder. I stayed very still, not wanting to wake him up and feeling an odd sensation in my stomach as I looked at him. For some reason having him resting against me like this felt really, really nice.

I shook my head and then shook his shoulder. “Hey, Jamie. Wake up.”

“Huh?” He sat up and looked around. “Oh, we’re home.”

“Yeah.”

As Jamie gathered his stuff together and the rest of the bus began to wake up around us, he said, “Hey, you doing anything tomorrow night?”

I shook my head. “Why?”

“You wanna come hang out at my place? We can play Madden on my PS2. I’ll show you how to REALLY play football.” He grinned a slightly crooked grin.

“Oh, you will, will you?” I said with a laugh. The hierarchy of high school football was such that I shouldn’t have been hanging out with our mascot, but if I couldn’t get away with whatever I wanted to after scoring two touchdowns in our season opener then I wouldn’t ever be able to do anything. Besides, all the other guys on the team would be partying all weekend, which held little to no interest for me, so I said, “Sure, sounds good.”

Jamie and I traded phone numbers and addresses, then got off the bus, splitting up as we headed off to meet our parents. Mine were waiting with my dad’s antique Packard that was his pride and joy. I hugged my mom, ruffled my sister’s hair and shook my dad’s hand. Then we got going.

Once I was at home I stripped naked and looked at myself in my bedroom mirror. Yeah, there was the bruises, starting to form up. I sighed. I was going to be very, very sore tomorrow. I took a moment to hop into the shower again and then went to bed.

Jamie, I thought to myself. I didn’t think anything in particular, I just thought of him. He seemed… interesting. A very nice boy. I looked forward to getting to spend tomorrow night at his place.

Then I reached under the blanket and took my penis in my hand, fondling myself into hardness and then starting to masturbate in earnest. Usually I thought about what it was going to be like when I fucked my wife on our wedding night. After all, I wasn’t going to be having sex before that point, so why think about it with anyone else?

But my mind’s eye kept focusing past my would-be wife and over to my memories of Jamie in the shower. Ok, to be honest, I’d masturbated before while picturing guys in the shower. It used to really worry me, but I’d read some books that said it was normal for boys to think about other boys sometimes, so I stopped being concerned.

Since Jamie was what my mind wanted to think about, I let it, remembering what he had looked like while the soapsuds ran down him. When I climaxed it was while thinking about his penis hardening as the water cascade down onto his naked body.

When I was done cumming, I cleaned up my sperm from my chest and, gradually, drifted off to sleep with images of Jamie dancing in my head.

* * *

All through the next day, I focused on the fact that I was going to be visiting Jamie that evening. I really couldn’t wait! I kept telling myself that I was looking forward to some video game playing, and that was true, but I knew that there was something else there. I couldn’t, wouldn’t, say what it was, but it was there.
When the evening finally rolled around, I almost spirited out the door, taking my bike out of the garage (I usually drove my Mom’s car, but she was out), and riding as fast as I could towards Jamie’s place. I’d never been there, but McRory wasn’t exactly a big town, so it wasn’t hard to find. When I got there, I parked my bike and knocked.

“Oh, hey, Ramon,” Jamie said as he answered the door.

“Hey, dude,” I said, shaking hands with him.

Jamie let me in the house and introduced me to his parents and his little sister. They all seemed pretty nice. Then we went up to his bedroom, my eyes drifting down onto his ass as we walked up the stairs. What the hell was I checking him out for? What was wrong with me?

Once in Jamie’s bedroom we settled down and started playing Madden on his PS2. Despite my skills at real life football, I really, really sucked at video game football. I gave it my best effort, but he still wound up beating me in four out of five games.

“That was pretty cool,” Jamie said with a grin after he beat me in the fifth game. “You know, you really suck.”

“Thanks,” I replied, sticking my tongue out at him. “I’ll get my revenge, just you wait.”

“Uh-huh. Not in this game you won’t.”

“Ha.”

After that we went downstairs to eat dinner. Spaghetti and meatballs. Jamie’s mother was a pretty good cook. My mom’s idea of cooking was something that came in a box, but Jamie’s mom had actually made the pasta herself, which was pretty cool. I didn’t even know you could do that. Tasted real nice, too.

When dinner was over we went back upstairs and played some more Madden. Jamie was right about me not getting my revenge on him through that came. I’d have to find another way, I guessed.

Eventually we settled down to sleep. Jamie insisted on giving me his bed and taking the floor. I wouldn’t hear of it.

“You’re a guest. You get the bed,” was his simple reply.

I shook my head, still standing fully dressed by his bed. “I’m not going to make you sleep on the floor in your own bedroom.”

“But that’s how we do it when I have guests. They get the bed, I take the floor.”

I shook my head again. “No. I’m not going to make you sleep on the floor. Look,” I continued as an idea hit, “this bed is big enough for us both. Why don’t you just sleep up here with me?”

“Uh… well…”

“Either that or I get onto the floor with you.”

Jamie laughed and shrugged. “I guess I can do that. Not a big deal, and, to be honest, the floor isn’t very comfortable.”

I laughed. “Yeah, I thought so.”

“Well, if you really don’t mind?”

“I don’t.”

“Ok.” Jamie stopped arranging his bedding on the floor and then began to strip. Once he was down to his underwear he got into bed, my eyes roaming all over his body as he did so. Oh, god, why was I checking him out?

“You getting’ in here or not?”

“Sure, sure.” I turned away from him as I undressed, and switched off his light as soon as I could. I didn’t want him to see my erection tenting out the front of my underwear. Then I got into bed with Jamie, staying as far away from his nearly naked body as I could, though that was the last thing I really wanted to do.

“This is kinda weird, Ramon,” Jamie said after a moment, a little giggle in his voice.

“Yeah, I don’t think I’ve ever slept with anyone before.”

Jamie laughed. “No, not that. I’ve done that lots of times with my ex. I mean sleeping in my underwear. I haven’t done that since I was a little kid.”

“Oh? What do you usually wear when you sleep?”

“Nothing.”

“Oh.” I was quiet for a moment. “Yeah, me, too.” Then a thought hit. “Wait. What do you mean sleeping with your ex?”

“Oh.” I could almost hear Jamie blushing. “Uh… well… uh… she… and I… well, we slept together a lot.”

“JUST sleep?” I asked, my heart racing.

“Uh… no. No, we… we had sex, too…”

“Oh.”

“Yeah.”

I digested this. “Damn. I hate you. I’m still a virgin.”

Jamie laughed a slightly nervous sounding laugh. “Yeah, well. Sex kicks ass, that’s for sure.”

I reached down and adjusted my erect penis, giving it a couple slow strokes. “Yeah, I bet.” After a moment I said, “Well… if you wanna sleep naked, I don’t really care.”

“You don’t?”

“Not really. I mean, it’s your bed.”

“Oh. Well… if you don’t care?”

“No, I don’t.”

“Ok.” I felt Jamie squirming around next to me and then his hand came up. “Set these on the floor for me, ok?”

I took his underwear from him and said, “Ok,” my penis jumping, as I set them down on the floor. They were warm to the touch.

“You can take yours off, too, if you want.”

“Uh… well, ok.” I got out of my underwear and tossed them onto the floor next to Jamie’s.

“Ah,” he said with a sigh. “That’s much better. I never saw the point of wearing clothes to bed.”

“Me, either.” I gave my penis another couple tugs. “So… you really had sex?”

“Yeah.”

“How many times?”

“I don’t know. A lot. At one point during the summer we were doing it two or three times a day.”

“Damn! Now I REALLY hate you!”

Jamie laughed. “Yeah, it was some seriously good sex.”

“Was she your first?”

“Yeah.”

“Cool. How did you get her to do it?” I asked, tugging a little more while I pictured Jamie naked and fucking some lucky girl.

“Uh… well, you know. The usual way I’d guess. We’d gone out a couple times and, uh, she wasn’t a virgin, so it wasn’t like it was a big deal for her.”

“Cool.”

“Yeah.”

“What’s it feel like?” I asked, stroking myself a little more.

“Oh, it’s the best thing you can imagine!”

“I don’t know. I can imagine pretty good.”

Jamie laughed. “Well, I promise it’s better than that.”

“Wow.” I continued to masturbate slowly, picturing Jamie with a girl.

“Ramon?” Jamie said after a moment.

“Yeah?”

“Are you… jerking off?”

I froze completely. “Uh… no. Why would you ask that?”

“Well… I thought I felt you moving around a little.”

“Oh.”

“If you were it’s not a big deal,” he said quickly. “I mean, I got pretty hard thinking about the sex I used to have.”

“Yeah, it sounds like it was pretty hot.”

“So were you?” Jamie prompted after a moment.

“Uh… was I jerking off?”

“Yeah.”

“Well, a little,” I said, glad the darkness hid my blushing. “Sorry.”

“No, it’s cool. I don’t really care.”

“You don’t?”

“No, go ahead. As long as you don’t mind if I do it, too.”

“Sure, I don’t care.” I began stroking my penis a little more enthusiastically now, turned on by the fact that Jamie was doing the same thing.

“Ah, that feels good,” he said after a bit.

“Yeah.”

“You ever jerk off with another guy before?” I asked.

“Yeah, one of my cousins. He’s the one who taught me how to do it.”

“Oh, cool.”

“Yeah.”

As my hand kept moving enthusiastically along my penis, I heard Jamie say, “You know what else?”

“Huh?”

“A couple times he and I even… well… promise not to tell anyone?”

“Ok.”

“Well… a couple times he and I even jerked each other off.”

“Oh,” I said after a moment, trying hard not to cum at that image.

“Yeah.”

“What was that like?”

“It was pretty fucking cool, actually. Having someone else do it to you is loads better than doing it to yourself.”

“Sounds like it would be.”

“Hey, Ramon?”

“Yeah?”

“Can I ask you something?”

Oh, god. Would he ask me to… could he ask me to… what would I say if he… oh, god! “Uh, sure.”

“Do you wanna… you know… try doing that?”

“Jerking each other?”

“Yeah.”

I swallowed hard, my mouth going dry as my heart raced. “Well…” I swallowed again. “I guess we can… if you want to. But don’t tell anyone, ok?”

“I won’t,” Jamie said softly.

“Ok. How do we… you know?”

“Like this.” I felt Jamie’s hand brushing against mine. “Let go.”

I released my penis and a moment later felt Jamie’s hand wrap around it. I sucked in my breath as he started slowly stroking me. It felt far better than anything I’d ever done before. It was so far past masturbating myself it wasn’t even funny! Oh, god, it was wonderful.

“Does that feel good?” Jamie whispered.

“Yeah…”

He pulled the blanket off our nude bodies. “Do me, too.”

“Ok.” Without thinking I reached out, feeling my fingers brush against Jamie’s thigh. Just as I processed that I felt them brush against something both hard and soft and warm and wonderful. Jamie’s penis. I ran my fingers along it for a moment and them wrapped them around the shaft, stroking slowly.

“Yeah… that’s good… you’re doing good…”

“Thanks,” I whispered.

I couldn’t believe I was really doing this. Here I was, masturbating another boy while he masturbated me. I knew it was wrong. Father Manuel would probably call it a mortal sin. Nothing that felt this good could just be a venal sin. Man, if that wasn’t a Catholic thought, I didn’t know what was.

“Go faster,” Jamie said softly.

“You, too,” I whispered back as I began stroking him faster.

A couple silent minutes went by and then Jamie said, “Dude… keep doing that and I’ll cum soon…”

“Me, too…”

“I bet I can make you cum before you make me cum…”

“You’re on…”

We began masturbating each other faster and faster, each trying to give the other an orgasm first. I tried desperately to hold back from cumming, but I knew that I was pretty well doomed. Jamie was just too good at what he did.

“Oh… oh, god… oh, Jamie… I’m… cumming…”

“Me, too… oh… oh, god…”

I felt Jamie’s penis start kicking in my hand as mine did the same in his, my sperm spurting out all over my stomach, chest and Jamie’s hand as his did the exact same thing to me. It was weird knowing that I had another guy’s sperm on my hand. It felt really warm and kind of cool, actually.

“Dude,” Jamie said, breathing hard. “Fuck, that was hot…”

“Yeah…” I replied, aware that we were still both holding each other’s penis. “You got a towel or something?”

“Yeah, but I got a better way to clean up.”

“Oh?”

Jamie pulled his hand off my penis. I watched in the faint light from the window as he lifted his hand to his mouth and, before my startled eyes, licked my sperm off it.

“Oh,” I whispered.

Then Jamie reached down and pulled my hand up to his mouth, licking all his sperm off from it, getting it nice and clean. The feeling of his tongue against my skin was enough to make me wanna cum again.

“But… what about…”

Before I could finish the question, Jamie moved his head down and started licking my sperm from my chest, then down onto my stomach. Then just as I started to make sense of that, I felt a delicious, wet warmth surround my penis. Something rasped along the shaft and tip for a moment and then was gone as Jamie laid back down next to me.

“There,” he said into the silence. “All clean.”

“Yeah…”

“Do you wanna help clean me off?”

“I… uh… I…”

Jamie shrugged after a moment. “Don’t worry about it.” He grabbed a towel from the side of the bed and wiped his sperm off his body and penis, then tossed it aside.

As Jamie pulled the blanket back over us I finally found my voice again. “Jamie?”

“Yeah?”

“That was… that was your mouth on… my dick… right?”

“Yeah.”

“Oh.”

“You’re not mad are you?” he asked me after a moment.

“No.”

“Ok.”

“Jamie?”

“Yeah?”

“You’re gay, aren’t you.”

Silence. Then, “Yeah.”

“That wasn’t a girlfriend, was it?”

“No.”

“Oh.”

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have lied to you, Ramon.”

“No, it’s cool.”

“So you’re not mad or anything?”

“No, I’m not.” Just confused, I thought to myself.

“Ok. Well… good night.”

“Good night.”

It was quite some time before I was able to get to sleep. Jamie was gay? And I’d masturbated with him. Did that make me gay, too? No, that made no sense. I wanted to fuck girls, I really did! So if that was the case, then why did I let him do that to me, and why did I jerk him off? I knew I shouldn’t have done it, but it felt so wonderful.

Horribly confused I eventually drifted off to a fitful sleep.

* * *

I woke up the next morning, still laying naked next to Jamie. He was still fast asleep, laying on his side with one arm draped over my chest. I got instantly hard looking at him with his delicate features. He looked really beautiful, I could admit that. Almost like a girl, but not quite.

Jamie must’ve felt me looking at him. His eyes fluttered open and he smiled a wonderful smile.

“Oh. Hey.”

“Hey.”

He ran his hand up my chest. “Did you sleep ok?”

“Yeah, I slept fine. Did you?”

“Oh, yeah. I haven’t slept this good since I was going out with Spence.”

“Who?”

“My boyfriend.”

“Oh.” Did this mean he thought I was his boyfriend now? What the hell did I say to that?

“You wanna see how I used to always wake him up?”

“Ok.”

Jamie grinned and ducked his head under the blanket. At first I wondered what he had in mind, but it wasn’t long before I had my answer as I felt that strange, wonderful, wet warmth around my penis again.

“Oh, god,” I whispered, placing a hand on the back of Jamie’s head as I got my first ever blowjob.

Jamie lifted his head up from under the blanket. “This your first blowjob?”

“Yeah…”

“Ok. Let me know before you cum.”

“Ok.”

Jamie pulled the blanket back and I watched as he settled his mouth back down around my penis again. Now I had the visual stimulation of watching him sucking me. It was the most incredible thing I’d ever seen, watching as he jerked me while licking his tongue along the shaft, tickling the tip and then back all the way down onto me. It was wonderful! If what we’d done last night was a mortal sin, I couldn’t even imagine how much penance I’d have to do for this!

After about three minutes, I whispered, “Jamie…? I’m gonna… I’m gonna cum soon…”

Jamie, rather than pulling off me like I’d expected him to, started going even faster, and slipped his mouth completely around my penis. It was obvious he expected me to shoot into his mouth, and even if I’d not wanted to, there was no way I could stop it. I let out a loud moan as my sperm began firing off into him, his throat working to swallow as much as he could as I came inside his mouth.

Jamie kept working my penis until I was completely done cumming, then he pulled off me and moved back up lay next to me, a grin on his face.

“So how was your first blowjob, Ramon?”

“That… that was… great…” I managed to say.

“Good.” Then he laid on his back and started quickly stroking his penis. I wondered if I should offer to do it for him, but before I could he started gasping and I
watched as his sperm sprayed out across his smooth, nearly hairless body. It was so cool!

After he was done cumming, Jamie licked his hand clean then wiped up the rest of his sperm. He slapped me on the thigh and said, “Come on, let’s get some breakfast.”

“Ok.”

Jamie started chatting while we began to get dressed, my mind seriously spinning. I needed to get away and do some thinking about everything that had happened. I didn’t really have a problem with it, per se, I just needed to think about it.

Just before we went into the hallway, I said, “Hey, listen, Jamie. I’d love to eat something, but I really should get home.”

“Oh, ok.” He looked very disappointed, but simply grinned and said, “Well, I had a fun night.”

“Me, too.”

“And a really fun morning.”

I laughed a little nervously. “Yeah, me, too.”

“Ok. Well, get your stuff. I’ll walk you downstairs.”

“Ok.”

I grabbed my stuff and we walked down to the front door. When we were there, I said, “Well, thanks for everything.”

“You’re welcome.”

Before I could leave, Jamie put his arms around me, hugging me tight. I figured that wasn’t any big deal and returned the hug.

Then I became aware of Jamie looking into my eyes as I looked into his. I swallowed a little as he moved his face forward and pressed his mouth against mine.

Before I really knew what I was doing, I’d opened my mouth, and our tongues brushed against one another. It wasn’t my first kiss, but it was without a doubt the best.

Then it hit me that I was kissing another boy! I quickly pulled away.

“Uh… I gotta go. I really gotta go. I’m sorry. I’ll… I’ll see you… later.” I mumbled and dashed outside, hopping onto my bike and pedaling away at full speed. I didn’t even slow down until I was back at my house, where I, barely, parked my bike and flew upstairs to my bedroom, closing and locking my door, then leaning up against it and breathing hard.

What the hell had I just done? I’d jerked off another boy, let him blow me and then kissed him! I knew he was gay, did this mean I was, too? I didn’t wanna be gay! I couldn’t be gay! I liked girls! How the hell could I be gay if I liked girls?! That didn’t make any sense!

Wait, I knew what was wrong. I hadn’t fucked any girls yet. Yeah, that was the problem. My virginity was making me act out in weird ways. Right. I knew how to fix that. I reached for the phone.

“Hello?”

“Jack? Hey, it’s Ramon.”

“Oh, hey, Ramon. What up?”

“You still having that party tonight?”

“Fuck, yeah.”

“Is Melissa Sanchez going to be there?”

“Fuck, dude, of course she is. She’s hot for your ass, you know.”

“Yeah, I know. Am I still invited?”

“What? You, Ramon Santiago, you’re actually going to come to one of my parties?”

“Yeah, sure. What the hell. I’ve been cooped up too long,” I lied.

“Well, yeah. Sure. Fuck, come on over. It’ll rock. I’ll let Melissa know you’re coming.”

“Ok, cool. Nine o’clock, right?”

“Yeah. See ya then!”

“Sure. Bye!”

Right, I thought as I hung up. That was that. Melissa would “straighten” me out. At the very least it’d help me block out the look on Jamie’s face as I ran away.
I hoped.

* * *

Jamie called a couple times before I left for the party, but I blew him off. I didn’t really want to talk with him right now. Well, actually, I DID want to. I wanted to spend time with him more than anything, but that was the problem. I knew I had to nip this thing in the bud. I’d go to the party, get laid by Melissa, or some other girl, and that’d be the end of that. Then I could just be friends with Jamie, and that would be sweet.

I ducked into the shower, getting myself as clean as I could. I even took the time to trim down my pubic hair a little, cause I knew from looking at other guys in the locker room, and talking to some, that girls liked it short.

Then before I got dressed I stood in front of my bedroom mirror, admiring my nude body, knowing this was the last time I’d see myself as a virgin. I looked pretty decent. Playing football had it’s good points, though I still had some of the bruises from the game the other night. That was ok. I figured Melissa wouldn’t care. Jamie sure hadn’t.

As I thought about Jamie my penis went from soft to completely hard in about three seconds. God, what we’d done last night had been SO INCREDIBLE. I knew it was wrong, but I REALLY wanted to do it again! Fuck, though, screwing Melissa would take care of that, I was pretty sure.

My mom was willing to let me borrow the car. It was a school night, but my grades were good enough that she trusted me to do what I needed to make sure I got enough sleep and everything for the next morning.

Jack’s house was on the other side of town from mine, so it was about a ten minute drive, but that was ok cause it gave me time to calm myself down and pump myself up for my plans tonight. I was gonna get laid! Laid for real! THAT was cool as fuck!

The party was already in full swing by the time I got there. I had to park nearly a block away and walk in. That was ok, though. Nothing was going to stop my from accomplishing my goals tonight!

“Oh, hey, dude, welcome,” Jack said, greeting me as I walked in.

“Hey,” I said, shaking his hand.

“Have a beer,” he said, tossing me one.

“Thanks.” I popped it open and drank it down. “Where’s Melissa?”

Jack laughed. “You’re hot to trot, huh? She’s in the kitchen, I think.”

“Cool.” I downed another beer and walked towards the kitchen.

I spotted Melissa right away. She was standing near the fridge, talking with Jake Benet, one of the players on the McRory High basketball team. Basketball was ok, but it wasn’t football.

She must’ve seen me coming, because she quickly ditched Jake and walked over to me. “Hey! Ramon! Jack said you’d be here tonight.”

“Of course. Would I ever miss something like this?”

She giggled. She was pretty cute, I guessed. She was sixteen, like me, and one of the cheerleaders. From what I’ve heard of her, she didn’t REALLY have any interest in cheering. She just liked being near the athletes because she liked screwing them. Very liberal with her affections. Really popular around the school. When the guys talked about what girl they’d most like to fuck, her name came up most often.

Melissa put her arms around me and kissed me on the cheek. “Well, I’m happy. I’ve wanted to see more of you.”

“How much more?” I asked with a slightly forced smile.

“Oh, everything I can,” she said, reaching down to cup my crotch as she kissed me on the mouth. It wasn’t as good as the kiss from Jamie, I couldn’t help but notice. “You wanna go upstairs?” she asked when she broke the kiss.

“Sure.”

She took me by the hand and led me away, making sure to blow kisses at her cheerleader friends as she walked by them. I could see looks of jealously on their faces. That made me feel kinda cool. It was nice to be wanted, especially by girls.

“Jack, we’re going to your bedroom!” she called out as we walked past him.

Jack laughed. “Don’t get cum on my bed, dude!”

“Oh, it’s all going somewhere else,” I said with a forced laugh. That got a howl of laughter from my teammates and even from Melissa as she led me up the stairs.

We went past two other rooms and the bathroom. In all three I heard the sounds of sex. In the bathroom, which had a door open, I could see one of the boys from my school, a mere fourteen-year-old freshman, I knew, just like Jamie, pants and underwear around his ankles as he was enthusiastically slamming into some girl from behind. He had a nice looking ass, I noticed briefly, then forced my brain away.

Melissa grabbed my ass. “You’re going to be doing that in a bit.”

“Cool,” I said with slightly forced enthusiasm.

Once we were in Jack’s bedroom, Melissa shut the door.

“Well… here we are,” she said with a feral grin.

“Yep!”

“So… what do you wanna do, Ramon?” she asked, advancing towards me.

“What are my options?”

“Hmmm… sex, fucking and screwing.”

“That sounds doable,” I replied, hoping I sounded more confident than I felt.

Melissa put her arms around me and started kissing me again as she began tugging at my shirt, pulling it off and over my head. She then began kissing my nipples and unbuckling my belt. Waves of pleasure washed over me. Yeah, I told myself, this is MUCH better than it had been with Jamie!

Once she had my belt unbuckled, Melissa reached inside my boxers and pulled out my penis. “Oooo… nice! Nothing like a little chorizo!” she said as she wrapped her mouth around me.

I laughed a little. It wasn’t a horrible joke. I’d have to keep that in mind next time Jamie was… no, wait. That would NEVER happen again.

As she blew me, Melissa began tugging my pants and boxers down. Once they were off my body, I stepped out of them, leaving me totally naked with a girl for the first time. She didn’t seem at all disappointed, moving one hand back to cup my ass as she sucked while she used the other to jerk me off while she sucked on me some more.

After a bit, Melissa stood up and pushed me down onto Jack’s bed. Then she pulled her t-shirt and bra off, followed quickly by her skirt and panties. She then straddled me at the waist and started kissing me.

“God, you’re fucking hot, Ramon,” she whispered.

“Thanks,” I whispered, kissing her back. I felt my penis nuzzling against something strange and wet with her breasts pressing against my chest.

Melissa pulled back a little. “You’re a virgin, aren’t you.” It wasn’t a question.

“Well… yeah.”

She grinned. “Cool. I’m gonna get the cherry of the best football player in Texas!”

I laughed, a little more sincerely than before. Melissa may have been a major slut, but she was pretty nice, too. “Well, I’m not THAT good.”

“Oh, I say you are.” She grinned and ground her hips against me, rubbing the tip of my penis even more against that weird, damp spot. “And since I’m the one on top, that means what I say goes.”

“Well, if you insist,” I said with a smile. “So what goes next?”

Melissa grinned even wider. “Your virginity.” With that she reached back and took hold of my erection. She raised her body up a little, and then began to lower herself down as a warm, tight, wetness enveloped me. Looking down I could see only the base of my shaft. There was no doubt. My no-longer virgin sixteen-year-old penis was now buried completely inside Melissa’s sixteen-year-old vagina. I was OFFICIALLY getting laid!

“Oooo… that’s nice,” she said, smiling at me. “You like?”

“Oh, yeah…” I said with a grin. It wasn’t even a lie! At least… not entirely. It DID feel good, but it didn’t feel… right… somehow.

“Let’s roll over, ok? I wanna see you fuck me,” she whispered.

“Alright.”

It was surprisingly easy to keep my penis inside her vagina as I rolled us over. Once Melissa was comfortably on her back, I steadied myself on top of her and began to slowly thrust like I’d seen people in porn films do. It felt really good, I could certainly admit that! Not quite as… no, no. It was better than the blowjob from Jamie. Yes, it had to be better! It was a girl, after all!

“Oh, yeah,” Melissa whispered, placing one hand on my shoulder and the other on my ass. “Oh, damn, you’re a hot fuck.”

“Thanks.”

I closed my eyes as I fucked, trying to cum, even though I didn’t feel like an orgasm was anywhere near. Oh, fucking Melissa felt good. Really good! But I didn’t think it was going to get me off.

There was a sudden, bright flash and blue orbs danced in front of my vision. I blinked repeatedly to clear my vision as I looked over at the door to see Jack standing there with a camera and a big grin.

“Good, we’ve got profile, now full face!” he said with a laugh.

I rolled my eyes. “Fuck you, Jack.”

“Can’t. You’re fucking Melissa. Bye!” He took two more pictures then shut the door and walked off. I rolled my eyes.

“Sorry, he’s an idiot sometimes,” I said to Melissa.

“Don’t need to tell ME,” she replied. “He’s a lousy lay, too.”

I laughed and started thrusting again, doing my best to regain my rhythm and trying to cum as soon as I could. I didn’t know why it was taking me so long. Usually when I jerked off I could come as quick as I needed to. I mean, I was losing my virginity! Nothing should be better than this! I should have no problems cumming! Heck, with Jamie I certainly had no problems!

Jamie… god, that had been hot, I thought, thrusting faster. God, the sex with Jamie, and that was certainly what was, sex, had been SO wonderful! The feeling of his mouth on me! Watching him lick up my sperm! And that kiss! OH, GOD, that kiss!

Suddenly I started grunting as my penis began twitching inside Melissa’s vagina. I tried hard to divert my thoughts onto anything other than the feeling of the blowjob from Jamie as I came, but it was no good. My sperm simply splashed into her waiting body as my mind spun with images of Jamie.

As I came down from my orgasm, I kept myself inside Melissa, breathing hard and trying to recover, trying to sort out what my brain was trying to tell me about what had happened with her. And what had happened with Jamie.

“THAT was good,” Melissa said kissing me. “You’re a great lay, Ramon. You sure that was your first time.”

“Yeah…” I rolled off and out of her, my penis slipping smoothly out of her vagina. “I would’ve remembered any others.”

She laughed. “Yeah, probably.”

“Thank you,” I said after a bit. “That was fun.”

She laughed some more. “Glad you liked it!” She wiggled her hips. “You wanna go again?”

I didn’t REALLY want to, but I figured I probably should, just to make sure of what I was beginning to suspect, and, after all, my penis, which hadn’t really softened much since I’d withdrawn it from Melissa’s vagina, was hardening up really nice at the very thought. It HAD felt good, after all. “Sure,” I said with a grin.

“Cool.” She laid on her back and spread her legs wide.

I got between her legs and looked at the confusing layout I was presented with. Oh, well. I figured if I could throw a pass halfway across a field, I could find the right place to stick myself in. I probed with the tip until I found that warm wetness again, and then pushed forward, watching as my penis sank into her vagina. It was a pretty cool sight to see, that I’d admit. Plus it was just basically cool the way we fit together.

“Mmmmm… yeah…” Melissa whispered. “Wow, I could get used to this!”

“Cool,” I said with a smile as I started fucking again.

As I fucked Melissa the second time, my brain drifted more and more onto Jamie, and then onto some of the other boys I’d seen, like the ones I’d seen naked in the locker room, and the boy I’d seen fucking earlier tonight. He had a cute ass, I could admit now.

Jamie had a really cute ass, too. I started wondering what it would be like to fuck him. If he’d had a boyfriend, he’d probably been fucked several times. I’d bet it’d feel really nice inside of him. And since he’d blown me, maybe I should blow him, too! Damn! What would THAT be like?

I started fucking faster and faster, dimly aware of Melissa moaning underneath me. She was obviously enjoying the sex, and so was I, but mostly only because I kept thinking about Jamie while I was fucking her.

Then Melissa let out a really loud moan, and her vagina began contracting repeatedly around my thrusting erection, which caught me completely off guard. It looked almost like she was having an orgasm! I didn’t know for sure, but it felt good, whatever it was, and it was enough to push me over the edge, my penis pulsing as my sperm shoot into her vagina once again.

Once I was done, I wasted no time rolling off her, my rapidly softening penis slipping out of her vagina. We laid there next to each other, breathing hard.

“Damn,” she said. “You’re a fine lay… for a gay boy…”

“What?!” I said in an indignant tone. I tried to sit up, but I was too exhausted.

“You’re gay,” she said simply. “I could tell from the moment I met you. You never look at any of the girls in school, you always shield away from me and when you were fucking me, your brain was clearly elsewhere.”

“NONE of which means I’m gay,” I pointed out. “If I was gay, I wouldn’t have fucked you tonight.”

“Yes, you would. If you wanted to prove you were straight.”

I stared at her, dumbfounded. “What the… how the fuck do you know this shit?”

“So you ARE gay.”

“I never said that.”

She laughed. “Ramon, you think you’re the first boy I’ve been with? You’re not. I’ve had at least two other boys who were trying to ‘turn straight’ by fucking me.”

“Did it work for them?”

“No. Did it work for you?”

I was quiet for several seconds. Then in a low, quiet voice, I whispered, “No.”

“I thought as much.” She had a somewhat smug look on her face.

“Melissa, please don’t tell anyone!” I pleaded.

“Don’t worry, Ramon. Your secret is safe with me.”

“Thank you.”

“So what set this off? You fooled around with another guy?”

“Yeah.”

She nodded. “That sounds about right.”

“So you’re not mad at me or anything?”

Melissa snorted. “Fuck, no. Look, straight or gay, you’re one of the best lays I’ve ever had. Not to many guys make me cum the second time they fuck a girl. I’m just disappointed I won’t ever get to again.”

I laughed a little. “Yeah, well… I think I’m going to end up with a boyfriend.”

“Good. But if you break up with him and need to get your rocks off? Remember me.”

I laughed again. “I will, I promise!”

“Good. And feel happy that Jack took those photos of you. It means if anyone says you’re gay, you can just point that out to them.”

“Hey, yeah!” I said, perking up.

She smiled. “Well, if you’re not in the mood to fuck me again…?”

It was clearly an invitation. I shook my head.

Sighing, Melissa said, “Oh, well. We should get dressed, then. I hope your new boyfriend appreciates what he gets with you.”

I smiled. “I think he will.”

The two of us got dressed and went downstairs, amidst many a catcall and wolf whistle. I smiled and took my bows before my friends, most of whom knew that I’d been a virgin. Now in the space of an hour, I’d fucked the best girl in school and figured out I was gay. If THAT didn’t mess with your head, nothing would!

After that, I gave Melissa a goodbye kiss and left the party, planning to head home. Halfway there it occurred to me that I had another stop that I needed to make. It was only a bit before ten-thirty. I could do what I needed to, then go home. I drove to my destination, got out, knocked on the door and waited.
Jamie answered.

“Oh! Ramon! Hey! Uh-”

Before he could get any farther, I put my arms around him and pulled him close to me, pressing my mouth to his and giving him the best kiss I could ever possibly imagine. I let my hands drift down to cup his ass as we kissed, his hands doing the same to me.

When the kiss finally broke, I said, “I want a boyfriend. Do you?”

“Oh, god, yes, Ramon…”

“Good. Then we both have one.” I kissed him again.

“Uhm… we can’t do… you know… right now… my parents. They don’t know.”

“Right. Ok.” I gave him another quick kiss. “Come to my place after practice tomorrow?”

“Oh, yes.”

“Good.” I kissed him one more time. “I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“Bye.”

And home I went.

* * *

School the next day was… interesting. I got lots of high-fives from various guys, and found out that Jack was showing around the photos he’d taken of me fucking Melissa. I got a look at them, and I had to admit, I looked HOT. She wasn’t bad, either. For a girl. I ran into Melissa at lunch and talked with her about it. She said she was cool with it, though Jack likely wasn’t getting anymore pussy from her, which gave us both a nice laugh.

Mostly I was interested in talking with Jamie, which I went out of my way to do, even making sure to sit with him at lunch, though I also had Melissa join us to keep things from looking too suspicious. Yes, I knew I was a gay now, but I didn’t want anyone else to know, aside from Jamie and Melissa.

I did tell Jamie about my night with Melissa and how that’d helped me to make up my mind about what I wanted with him. Jamie was pretty cool with, even said thanks to Melissa, and the two then sat around making good natured jokes about how I looked naked. I smiled and let it pass, happy to be able to be open about my relationship with Jamie with at least someone.

I largely went through the motions during school, but when it came to football practice I put all thoughts of Jamie out of my head, despite the fact that both he and Melissa were sitting in the stands watching us practice. The game coming up on Friday would be our first home game of the season and we’d be playing against St Frances High School out of Wayne’s Center, Texas. They weren’t too big of a rival. We’d only played against them the last two years. But it was still a game, and we had to win.

After practice I went and cleaned up, then met with Jamie and Melissa. She lived on the way to my house, so the two of us walked her home. I even gave her a little kiss on the cheek once we got her there, just to keep the illusion going. She grumbled something about me being a tease, and then Jamie and I were on our way.

“So will your parents be home?” Jamie asked as we walked.

“No, they’re gone for another couple hours.”

“Oh, good.” He smiled widely.

“What did you have in mind, Jamie?” I asked with a smile of my own.

“Sex. Your first REAL time having sex with another boy.”

I laughed. “God, you’re direct.”

“Yeah, well, we both know what we want. Why pretend?”

“Good point.”

Butterflies began fluttering through my stomach as we got closer to my house. I was going to have sex with Jamie. Not just fooling around like we did the other night and morning, but actual, real, honest-to-goodness sex! Jesus, I got so hard I could barely walk! I was horny and nervous and anticipating it like nothing! Even what I’d gone through last night, planning to fuck Melissa, was minor compared to the thought that I was going to be really having sex with… with my boyfriend!

“Is something wrong?” Jamie asked, looking at me.

I shook my head and smiled. “No. Everything’s perfect.”

When we got to my house, I let Jamie in and made sure to lock the door. I showed him around briefly but then we beat feet to my bedroom where I, again, made sure to lock the door. A repeat of yesterday I did NOT need.

Once the door was closed, Jamie and I stood there in my room, facing each other and smiling.

“Hi,” he said.

“Hi,” I replied. Scintillating.

“Nervous?” he asked, putting a hand on my shoulder.

“A little,” I admitted.

“Don’t worry. It’ll be good.”

“With you,” I said, placing my hand on his face, “it’ll be magic.”

Jamie shook his head. “Jesus, Ramon. You make me so horny.”

“Good.” I leaned forward and kissed him on the mouth. Soon we were necking for all we were worth.

Jamie broke the kiss. “Let’s get naked.”

“Ok.”

Jamie and I quickly shed our clothes and fell onto my bed where we started kissing again, our hands roaming all over one another’s nude bodies. It was very nice letting my hands explore his wonderful body. I cupped his perfect ass, fascinated by the way the muscles moved under the skin.

“You are so beautiful,” I whispered to him as we kissed.

Jamie giggled. “I was about to say the same thing to you.” He kissed me a couple more times. “So yesterday you were fucking your first girl, and now you’re gay. I’m sure Melissa appreciates that.”

I laughed. “Yeah.” I smiled. “So we’re boyfriends now?”

“Of course!”

“Good.”

Jamie and I began stroking each other’s penises as we kissed some more. Then after a few minutes of making one another feel good, Jamie said, “I wanna blow you.”

“No, wait.”

“What?” he asked, already moving down.

I swallowed a little. “Let me blow you first,” I whispered.

“Oh? Oh! Ok!” Jamie moved back up laid down on his back.

Continuing to stroke Jamie’s penis, I moved myself down until my face was near it. I couldn’t really believe that I was about to do this. I mean, here I was, a good Catholic boy, and about to suck another guy’s dick! Well, ok, maybe that’s not so odd for a Catholic, but usually the other guy would be a priest.

Holding it up, I gave the shaft a little lick. It didn’t really taste like anything. Just skin. Emboldened by this, I opened my mouth and lowered it completely down around Jamie’s penis, taking as much in as I could. I choked a little and had to back off a bit, but I still had him inside my mouth, and that was what I wanted. I certainly liked that nice full feeling in my mouth.

“Mmmm… yeah, that’s pretty sweet,” Jamie said, running his fingers through my hair.

I moved my mouth up and down along my boyfriend’s penis, doing whatever I thought would make him feel good, including stroking him while I sucked him, which I knew I’d enjoyed when both he and Melissa had done it to me.

I kept sucking on Jamie’s penis, losing track of how long I’d been doing it, but enjoying every second of it. But after some time, I heard him whisper, “Ah… oh… Ramon… I’m getting’ close… I’m gonna cum soon…”

He was warning me so that I could pull off if I wanted to, but I didn’t want to. I was determined to have him cum in my mouth. I’d come in his, so it was only fair. The only thing I wondered was what it was going to taste like.

I soon had my answer, as Jamie began moaning, put his hands on the back of my head and thrust into me, his penis twitching and his sperm shooting out into my mouth in several sharp spurts. It was strange, but not unpleasant. Salty and warm with a weird texture. I didn’t mind it, though. Plus it was sweet knowing that I’d just given my boyfriend (I had a boyfriend! WOW!), an orgasm. I also felt proud of myself for managing to swallow it all, and do so without gagging or anything!

Once I knew Jamie was done cumming, I pulled off him and licked my lips as I moved back up to lay next to him. “Did I do ok?” I asked.

“Oh, god, Ramon, that was wonderful.”

“Glad you liked it.” I kissed him.

Jamie grinned. “Now I have a job to finish!” He kissed his way down my body and soon took my penis into his mouth. I wanted to last a good long time and not cum too soon, but I knew it was a pointless quest. Within only about 90 seconds, I felt my orgasm hitting as my sperm shot into my boyfriend’s mouth.

Jamie swallowed rapidly, ingesting all my sperm. Then he climbed back up my body and began kissing me passionately. It was kind of weird to think that I was making out with a boy who’d just came in my mouth and who’s mouth I’d just came in. Weird, but not at all bad!

“Did you like it?” Jamie asked me in between kisses.

“Oh, yes… oh, god, yes…” I kissed him some more and then whispered, “I love you, Jamie.” I had no idea why I felt that way. I mean, I’d only known him a short time and only really had sex with him once, but it was true anyhow.

He pulled his head back. “You do?”

“Yeah.”

“Cool. I love you, too, Ramon.”

“Cool.”

The two of us snuggled there together, naked on my bed, for another thirty minutes or so before Jamie had to leave. I walked him to the front door, gave him a huge kiss goodbye and spent the entire rest of the day with a big, stupid grin on my face.

END

Copyright 2006 by Alex Hawk, all rights reserved.

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